I AM GAY, My name is LARRY THE FAIRY and I'm proud of it.
People always want to know "When/How did I know"
I'm gonna tackle the topic head on.
I was always a 'different' kid, I hated playing with the boys, I hated sports, I always wanted to be the pink power ranger, and I always had female friends instead of guys.
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| Age 15 |
I even started telling my closest friends I was gay, that's when the name Larry The Fairy started, shortly after one of my female friends who knew I was gay asked me to be her boyfriend. You know they say "you can knock it 'til you try it" so I said yes. We dated for a while and did normal things that 14 year old couples did, went to the movies hung out after school etc. when I was 14 1/2 I met a guy online he was older and HE is who I lost my virginity to, a week later I lost my virginity to a girl just to prove to myself I wasn't gay. It didn't work, I continued to date her off and on until senior year of high school all the while having guys on the side which is not something I'm proud of.
I was so far in the closet in middle school and high school that I wore fubu and tried to be this masculine person, It was just a front when I was in high school 1999-2002 there were NO openly gay guys to my knowledge.
I got picked on all the time, I was pushed down the stairs, I've had gum put in my hair, I've had my car windows shot out, I've had a gun pulled on me twice and even got into one HUGE fight my freshmen year that got me expelled from that school district for 1 year. All because they thought I was gay, that's how every fight started. That fabulous 3 letter word "FAG" I heard that so much in school.
Finally the last day of my senior trip with my closest friends and girlfriend I came out to my friends AGAIN and this time for good. The next morning I had sex with my girlfriend 1 last time. That was 10 years ago and I haven't been intimate with a girl ever since.
Once we came back from our senior trip I came out to the rest of my friends and life seemed to be so much better, Instead of people saying "FAG, QUEER" they said "Larry The Fairy, whats up homie?!" life just seemed to be perfect.
When I was 19 I finally came out to my family, not really by choice but because I was having a HUGE with my mom, I left her this LONG nasty letter that ended with "oh and by the way, I'm gay so if you want to disown me please feel free" It didn't take long for word to spread throughout the rest of my family, surprisingly the 1st person to call and extend their support was my very straight very masculine uncle, that truly shocked me.
I avoided my mom's phone calls for several weeks after that because I was scared to hear what she had to say. When I finally picked up she said "son I love you, but did you mean gay as in happy or gay as in you like other men?" I laughed out loud and replied "I like other men mom" she then said "well, I support you no matter what, but please always wear protection and I know how you like to spend money so you'd better find a sugar daddy"
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| With my grandma age 19 |
It was one of the last times I spoke to my mom before she passed away, and I'm so grateful I got to tell her before she died. Not surprisingly one of my biggest supporters was my grandma who when she found out said "DUH!" and she has been to gay bars with me and has really embraced who I am as a person. I love her and she is my best friend in the whole wide world.
I have had a pretty amazing life and I know for sure if I stayed in the closet I would be a miserable person, so I want to empower all of those who are scared to come out.
I love my life and everyone in it, we have all met for a reason and each and every single one of the people I have met have impacted my life and I hope I've done the same for them.
Momma Larry loves you pAArty animals XO
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| Walking in the 2011 Dallas pride parade |
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